Personality Revamp

I went through a moderate personal crisis the other day. I think I am getting over it, so don't go spending too much time worrying about me. Just in case you are curious to know what my crisis was about, I will tell you. You may or may not know and have taken a Myers-Briggs personality test in your day (if I know you from Prov, you probably have, because in my experience they are all the rage at Prov), but if you haven't you just might not get everything I say in the next few paragraphs. Tough.

I did my first personality test almost 2 years ago and discovered that I was an ENFP, which was fine with me and I really felt was a fairly accurate representation of my personality. However, in the past while I have had a few conversations with other people as well as with myself (don't you have conversations with yourself?) about things that bother me, and one of my biggest pet peeves I have discovered this year is when people cancel plans last minute. I never before realized how much this bothered me until this year. I have a pretty busy life, and I like people a lot, and I like a lot of people, and so in order to see them all and also get all of my work done, I generally have to plan ahead somewhat. What drives me crazy is when I book a night off for someone and refrain from making plans with other people and then I end up at home because someone realized they forgot about a prior commitment. I work hard to make sure that I am able to follow through on my commitments, and it irks me (yes, I did use that word) when other people don't do the same for me. On a slightly different topic (but enough the same one to stay in this paragraph), I find that I have developed a large amount of appreciation for being able to use time well. That means such things as: finishing assignments on time (even if they were only started hours before they were due), doing work when it needs to be done, keeping tabs on commitments, not spending vast amounts of time doing nothing, etc. The thing is, that I also like being able to enjoy my leisure time to the fullest. I don't want to waste away a day off - I want to relax to the max (is that a saying for real? because I feel like I just made it up right now). I feel like I can't do that unless I have finished what needs to be finished first. Then my mind can rest and I can REALLY have fun, without things I need to do still weighing on my mind. Okay, this is turning into a rant so I'd better move onto the next paragraph.

All that suggests that my former identification as a "P" is in no way possible. I have concluded that I am a "J", and I have done a couple tests in the last few days to check up on it. So that's that, apparently something has happened to me in the last yearish that has changed my personality type. Crazy. And since I base all of my self worth in the personality type that I am, you can see how this really was a hard week of soul searching and questioning who I really am (please understand that I like to use sarcasm [and brackets today apparently]).

So, in conclusion, I would like to suggest to all of you personality test junkies out there (I find that those who love personality tests are the same type of people that love blogs) that you don't have to become complacent and conform to the personality type that you once believed you were. Change is possible. Life is bigger than those 4 small letters. There are 8.